It's Been Too Long

I am sitting here this beautiful, sunny, fall morning. The glow from the orange, yellow and red leaves streaming into my living room. Listening to Christmas worship music, because i've finally embraced the fact that I LIKE listening to Christmas music longer than just the month of December. I am amazed that it has been a full year since the last time I posted anything on here or anywhere really. Life can sure get busy and just fly by if you let it. 

I am in a really neat season of life right now. I feel like God is just completely focused on the state of my heart. He wants me to be healthy and whole, it take ALL pressure off figuring out how i'm going to single handedly save the world. I have found that I am REALLY good at just trudging ahead no matter what is going on around me or how empty I feel. My thought has been this season must end eventually so mine as well keep busy while its here so that time goes quicker. Ha! Sounds SO ridiculous when I actually say it out loud but thats how I've been operating.  

The BEST part of this season of Him helping me focus on uncovering my heart is that when I do my future becomes so much more inviting and exciting! When you have a happy healthy heart then the options are limitless! I am still unsure of so many things but am learning to enjoy each day for what it is. 

Last year was the first time in my life I spent Christmas away from all my family and I decided that I needed to come up with a way to make Christmas feel like Christmas no matter where I am in the world or who I am with. So I started making a Christmas checklist with thinks like: Make sugar cookies, or build a snowman, or sing Christmas carols, and I have found myself so much more excited as I approach the holidays this year even though I am not going to be with my family for Thanksgiving OR Christmas this year! 

My point in sharing this is that this idea has taught me a very helpful lesson about how I have so much more control over my life than I think I do. Its all about my outlook and choice of positioning my heart. I can always choose to focus on what I don't have but then my outlook on life is going to be that I am lacking but if I focus on all that I DO have then there is SO much to celebrate!!